my it

What do you hate more? What do you hate from the bottom of your soul? What's the last thing that you'd like to feel? What do you need to feel in order to experience cold in the worst way?

Answer all those questions on a piece of paper, and then just imagine that there's something out there that might help you forget about all those things. Imagine, that there's something out there, that even if you doesn't help you skip all those problems, it gives you the amount of strength that you need to fight with 'em. Even if you lose, just gives you the power to believe.

Even, end even if you lose, you own the energy you need to get up and move to the prev. level, gain some xp, and fight back, kick some ass, jump 2 lvls, and get back to the game :) ha? Guess it's just a lovely thought to know that there's some like that. The first thing that jumps into my mind thinking of it - is the Holy Grail - we all know about it, but we never actually touched it didn't we?

Well i guess we did. But we never had the power to understand it. Why is that? Because we were too careful playing with it, or enjoying it - and we've forgot the meaning of loving it. I'm using it, because can be an object, or a female, or a male although it's hard to love an object :)

Just as a thought, I'm just gonna close my eyes, thinking of my 'it' right now, enjoy my moment of silence, understand it's value to me, learn to believe in it, learn to have faith in it, and forget about everything else. What have I achieved? Same deal, 'cause the size of 'it' - as it was sitting in my mind, has dynamically increased the second I've forgot about 'everything else' - replacing the empty space :).

Can this mean I'm filled up right now? Or it's just me, loving to learn how to love my 'it'?