shusssh

"Shussssssssssh now."

Seems to be the only thing, that works while we go to sleep, naked, in the middle of a battle field, on a cold winter - probably in Alaska or somewhere out there. We never know why we're doing it, it's like a sin, but we are doing it anyway, so we might as well smile, smile again and forget about it. The strangest thing is that we know that this fight's gonna role just next to where we're standing - I'm talking we, as humans - but we still go there. What the fuck are we thinking about? And we're still doing it!!!

As a good old friend used to say - "men have needs". I'd like to work a little bit on that and change "men" with "humans". Why would i do that, you'd ask :) Well because we need more in order to feed ourselves, no matter if it's a physical issue or we just like to feel something special. Maybe that pushed the man above to go naked in the middle of the fuckin iceberg country - in the winter - just to checkout a war.

So if I've got it right from the lines above, the only thing that can chill is a bloody "shusssh"? Yeah, it seems it's enough for him, as it would be for a cracker to just walk down the street and pickup a 100grams or heroine. "Coming from anyone?" - you'd ask - no you silly one, coming from someone special or something special for the brave heart above.

It's like ... lemme give u another one, just to make shore you feel me right. Why is it that a fuckin elephant is running from a bunch of mice? - except it's the other way - how fuckin simple can it be :) Well this means that theoretically we're developing a need to go on and on, no matter what, in order to achieve our goals - in this case, to reach that "shussssssssh" i was talking earlier.

Now figure this out, what if some one's goal, is to understand something, someone. To understand the way she/he moves, walks, talks and thinks. Now don't get me wrong on this one, I'm not talking about a freaking doc sitting in his little lab with rabbits and stuff, injecting all kinda of green shit, to check it's next move in the box :). Maybe you feel attracted to someone and you have developed a need to understand everything about this. Everything cannot be reached, ofcourse, but you can get real close to it you know :)

Yeah, ofcourse there's shit coming up between those 2 little pidgeons, I'm shore of that, but what if it's just gonna increase the strength the relationship that they've developed? The hardest thing a smart ass can reach is to have faith in someone else, but what if for a second out there, the first one argues with the second one, and in the same time, they have faith in each other, would be a nice thing to be known, specially if there's tension humping the room.

And by having feign in the other one - even if we're not shore in ourselves, what do we reach? We lose all that tension that comes around the corner, pushing each other to argue - and we're getting closer and closer to that "shasssssssssssh" we badly need - even if it's love, even if it's a heartbeat, even if it's money, guns, drugs, freaking midgets to shoot at - what ever.

It's like we don't know if we're going to be able to do something in the future. But what the fuck? we're spending quite a lot of 'quality time' with each other. We often tell ourselves we love, we feel good next to each other, we understand each other, and from a couple of months, it seems we're rolling smooth. More then that, we've managing each others businesses, taking care of each other and copying from each other's movements and shit - what the fuck! I'm shore I'll fuckin work like a charm! And if it will not work on that part, we'll manage to work it out somehow, in order to please both parts and that's all :) How fucking perfect can that be? :)

It's quite interesting how you can find your "sshusssssssh" and wish for more every time, every time - but, beware, don't forget what you have. In fact, I'm remembering right now

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done.

Can there be something more sacred then that well known "shissssssssh" that we all need? Coming from the right way? Is the sleepy one above still alive? :)

:* >:D<

Cya!

my it

What do you hate more? What do you hate from the bottom of your soul? What's the last thing that you'd like to feel? What do you need to feel in order to experience cold in the worst way?

Answer all those questions on a piece of paper, and then just imagine that there's something out there that might help you forget about all those things. Imagine, that there's something out there, that even if you doesn't help you skip all those problems, it gives you the amount of strength that you need to fight with 'em. Even if you lose, just gives you the power to believe.

Even, end even if you lose, you own the energy you need to get up and move to the prev. level, gain some xp, and fight back, kick some ass, jump 2 lvls, and get back to the game :) ha? Guess it's just a lovely thought to know that there's some like that. The first thing that jumps into my mind thinking of it - is the Holy Grail - we all know about it, but we never actually touched it didn't we?

Well i guess we did. But we never had the power to understand it. Why is that? Because we were too careful playing with it, or enjoying it - and we've forgot the meaning of loving it. I'm using it, because can be an object, or a female, or a male although it's hard to love an object :)

Just as a thought, I'm just gonna close my eyes, thinking of my 'it' right now, enjoy my moment of silence, understand it's value to me, learn to believe in it, learn to have faith in it, and forget about everything else. What have I achieved? Same deal, 'cause the size of 'it' - as it was sitting in my mind, has dynamically increased the second I've forgot about 'everything else' - replacing the empty space :).

Can this mean I'm filled up right now? Or it's just me, loving to learn how to love my 'it'?

time

"Sooner or later.....is just a matter of time isn't it......"

Time
Who's time? Who establishes this time, the time you've mentioned up there??
Are we gonna let someone else / something else set this time?
How come while doing something fun, time passes faster vs while dealing with something you don't like?
Who sets those rules? I ain't gonna let nobody set the time for me!
Therefore I might as well set the time to look like it lasts longer while doing some fun.
This way, I'm gonna enjoy somethin' good for me for a longer time (from my point of view).

I could try as well to imagine that every second lasts forever - and you'll have to go with me on this one.

1. Every second we'll spend next to each other lasts forever from now on (coming from my rules - i feel what i want to feel).
2. Every second I'll spend w/ u, was, is and will be a drop of rain in the middle of the desert.

Therefore, from the last lines, I've realized that I'm gonna have the same feelings, knowing this time, that "the time", in this case, it's gonna last forever and ever - by my own rules. And yes, I'm willing to wait that long, 'cause I'm enjoying it quite a lot :P.

just us...

Dar piara oamenii cu toti, s-ar naste iarasi oameni.
Ei numai doar dureaza-n vant deserte idealuri - cand
valuri afla un mormant, rasar in urma valuri; ei doar
au stele cu noroc si prigoniri de soarte, noi nu avem 
nici timp, nici loc, si nu cunoastem moarte. Din sanul
vesnicului ieri traieste azi ce moare, un soare de s-ar
stinge-n cer s-aprinde iarasi soare; parand pe veci a
rasari, din urma moartea-l paste caci toti se nasc
spre a muri si mor spre a se naste...

hard day,rough feelings...

And all I can taste is this moment
And all I can breathe is your life
Cause sooner or later it's over
I just don't want to miss you tonight..........

Sooner or later.....is just a matter of time isn't it......

 

the teddy-bear move

And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming
Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything seems like the movies
Yeah you bleed just to know your alive

front

And I'd give up forever to touch you
Cause I know that you feel me somehow
You're the closest thing to heaven that I'll ever be
And I don't want to go home right now